*hits keyboard*

found myself crying today, over a lot things I thought were behind me...
found myself too ill for Jodo, or just unwilling to face the harsh reminders...
found myself giving up today, I told myself to never do that again...

Maybe I am too fevered to think,
maybe I am forcing this on myself,
maybe I am far too far away.

This is the next stage,
this is what happens,
this is not a good thing.

I know the wrost,
I prepair for it,
I hang back, so it won't hurt so much.

Just need to remember, it's a year before that happens fully,
just need to remember, to make the most of the time left,
just need to remember, not to remember.

Be Seeing You.